How do you conquer one's desires? I will be conducting an experiment on how to conquer my desires. I am currently planning to read up on desires and its psychology effects.
Of course, for the past few months, I have been trying to curb this unhealthy desire of mine. And so far, I have failed. Terribly. So, onwards!
11/7
To write is to feel, yet I do not know what I'm feeling.
To cry is to break, yet I do not know why I'm breaking.
To love is to fall, this I know why I'm mourning.
To sleep is to be in peace, this I know why I'm struggling.
To think is to regret, yet I know I should be rejoicing.
12/7
Questions questions questions
Curiousity kills the cat they say,
But curiousity saved man they did not say.
Desires desires desires
To conquer them is to conquer the world,
The world needs to be conquered if it is to harmonise.
Lies lies lies
The bitterest truth is better than the sweetest lie
Yet people are punished for the truth.
The truth better kept as a secret.
17/7
Fights between friends are a normalcy
Or so I have heard
Or so I had just experienced.
But fight between friends are short
Years of friendship bound to heal a minor crack
With abit of humility and maturity
Love will prevail.
Written in the year 2014
I dont know what I'm feeling. Sometimes it's better to write it out, for me. Im feeling a smidge of loneliness, yet I know I'm not. Im feeling a smidge of unhappiness, yet I do not know what I'm upset about. Just another sleepless night I guess. Another night which I would think of all the things I have done, and should have done. Feeling a smidge of emptiness, yet I know I'm filled. Filled with happy memories that I can never erase.
Possibly the reason why I keep fantasizing about going to faraway lands, travelling, is because I want to run away from everything I have and experience something new. The day I do that, then I shall be The Happiest Man Alive.
I'm writing this because I can't sleep. I want to, but I just can't.
I want to travel, alone. I'm not into the wilderness or backpacking all that. I want to travel by plane. I can just imagine myself on a plane, alone, with a book in hand and music in my ears. And I would alight alone, walk, explore and think alone. The first country I would go is Australia. I would return to Margaret River and enjoy myself there. Sitting in a cafe with a book in hand, that is the life. The life I'm wanting now, with all the time in the world. Just blissful.
I would spend a week or two in Australia, then I would go to New Zealand. I would rent a car and drive myself to the hills and mountains. The lakes and the streams. And perhaps I would take a sip of the clean clear natural water. Just heavenly.
Then I shall go to Greece. And I shall feast upon all things related to greek mythology and rest in peace. I shall go to the ruins, the temples, and of course, Mount Olympus.
The next country I would go to is Spain. I would travel by walking, appreciating all the culture the country has to offer. And of course, watching a football match in Camp Nou is a must.
Then I shall go back to my islamic roots. Turkey. The gateway to Asia and Europe. And I shall venture back to Asia. South Korea, Japan, Hong Kong. This is my dream, and I shall achieve it.
Syabab Qawiy is a selawat and kompang group consisting of current and former Irsyadians.
We were formed around the year 2011 under the name Muhibbeen as just a selawat and qasidah group. However late 2012, we became a kompang group as well. We are recognised with our cyan colored baju kurung.
We have performed at many venues so far. Community centres, void decks and hotels. We currently have only 10 members, but we are looking to 'upgrade' the current Muhibbeen group. Some of our members are also part of another group, Ikrab Ria.
I'm personally proud of my group, to have seen ourselves improving as performers. From just performing at our school, we have ventured out under the guidance of Ustaz Dzarif, whom we owe alot to.
I hope that we shall keep on improving, and also add on to our ranks.
Members
1) Imran 2) Qudrat 3) Hadi
4) Quraish 5) Shafaat 6) Fahmi
7) Ubaid 8) Fahmi 9) Wafy
10) Suhaili
Peace.
This was a pre-written blog. Meaning that I wrote this long before the date this was published, which was 8 July 12:53 AM.
I have been posting and deleting many posts in the past, so I'm hoping that bad habit will stop. I have been searching for a nice official day to 'restart' my blog, and what better day than the first day of Syawal!
3rd August 2014 / 7 Syawal 1435
Looks like I have been too busy till I forgot to post this. But oh well, this is the new official start!
